.Sunday, April 27, 2008 ' 6:52 PM Y
I think its time to end this unfortunate story..
i understand what you meant now. you didnt have to hide HIM from me. I could have understand right away. IF you had bothered to listen to the song i was listening on the mp4. you'll realise that i suspected HIM for quite awhile .But .. i wanted to trust you .. so even though i had the urge to check your smses.. i didnt .. i didnt at all.well take care. i dont think i'd wanna be friends. sorry . our relationships are over. when we meet . we'll just past by each others. i wont even smile .Cos without you .i ll just be miserable at best ..
Katie, don't cry, I know
You're trying your hardest
And the hardest part is letting go
Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling and you know it's haunting
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright
And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but i want it so
Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best
You're all that I hoped I'd find
In every single way
And everything I could give
Is everything you couldn't take
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay
Because I know I'm good for something
I just haven't found it yet
But I need it
So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best
Ladada ladada ladadaoh ohhh
And this will be the first time in a week
That I'll talk to you
And I can't speak
It's been three whole days since I've had sleep
Because I dream of his lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I'm not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly
So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you
But without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you
Oh, without you I'll be miserable at best
And perhaps I'll show you a sweet dream the next night ™
.Thursday, April 24, 2008 ' 3:43 AM Y
I think its time to end this unfortunate story..
its oredi the 3rd day .. she no longer picks up my call after she finishes school .. have i done something wrong ..? .. cause .. im really dying slowly .. i know her school work must be pretty busy .. but .. atleast try to make time for me?.. its like .. we no longer chat much .. we use to chat from night to the early morning .. but now .. we dont even chat for more than 1 hour .. hais .. whats going on ?..
Labels: broken, confused, lost
And perhaps I'll show you a sweet dream the next night ™
.Wednesday, April 23, 2008 ' 2:02 AM Y
I think its time to end this unfortunate story..
hais .. my laopo has been busy with her school work this few days .. im starting to feel rather lonely .. she rarely has time for me anymore .. if i say that i don't feel neglected .. i'd probably be lying ..
i really wish this feeling would go away soon ..its killing me .. no matter what i do .. whether i occupy my self with my online games .. or try studying .. i still feel rather moodless .. if this is a test of love for both of us .. then i wouldnt wanna know the results ..
but no matter wad .. i guess ill try to cope with what im going thru .. :) ..
laopo .. i really love you lots ..
i really miss the times we hug ..
and the times when my lips touches yours ..
no matter whether while we're watching a movie .. or when we're spending time together alone..i really miss those times .. even .. if it was only a few days ago..
and the way you alwaes act cute and apologise even if ue weren't in the wrong.. just to cheer me up when im in a bad mood ..
I dont wanna turn all this into nothing but mere distant memories ..
laopo .. i even went to top up my handphone prepaid despite not having much money .. just to sms you and talk to ue ..
and laopo .. sometimes .. please do understand. I become moodless for a reason .. im not crazy you know .. == ..
i hope this will briefly explain to you about my mood this few days laopo.. :)
P.S,
ILOVEYOU
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And perhaps I'll show you a sweet dream the next night ™
.Monday, April 21, 2008 ' 4:32 AM Y
I think its time to end this unfortunate story..
so .. my blog probably died long ago .. lawls .. XP .. our 2nd month just passed one week ago .. x) .. woooos .. .. .. hais .. ive been very moody this few days.. I guess im not used to dardar being busy and all.. sometimes i feel so lonely .. ive got no one else to talk to ..hais ..
sometimes she takes so long to reply my smses.. sometimes .. its worst .. she doesnt reply me back at all .. i dunno how long can i handle it .. im just gonna go nuts one day ..
what makes it more fucked up is that ive been feeling a sharp pain at my chest .. is something wrong with me?.. i was referred to changi general hospital .. the doctor in the hospital even wanted to follow me up .. to another doctor .. hais .. oh well .. better dying than live painfully.. =/
..and i wish i wasnt so moody .. but i just cant help it .. rite now .. i just feel like blasting screamo music .. just to soothe my bleeding heart .. :) ..thats the only thing that cheers me up regardless of anything ..
psp oh psp .. where are ue? .. i haven got to know you well enough .. i rarely get to touch it nowdays .. oh wells .ive lost my mood to play games and all anyway .. so ..yea ..
ok .. thats about it .. i think ill go blast my music on my mp4 and sit in a corner .. ciaos ..
sometimes i wish we'd exchange each others lives so that ue'd feel what im feeling and going thru now .. cos half of me already wants to break down and cry ..
Labels: Just to let you know .. i wasn't asking for the world ..
And perhaps I'll show you a sweet dream the next night ™