RIDZUAN

2009-02-19T08:50:00.001-08:00

Come back home soon dardar. i really miss you.. :(

2009-02-10T22:50:00.000-08:00

YOOOOO! lols. its been a loooooooooooooooooong time since i've posted on this dead blog of mine x) .. last time posted was .. last year october! wow. hahaha. see baby. dont say i didn't post on my blog hor . :) .. k la. need to go practice my guitar. ciao.

2008-10-14T04:47:00.000-07:00

booo! haha. its been TOO long since i posted. xD .. can't blame me bah . im bored stiff with nothing to do . x_X .. anyway.. guess what .. im finally able to do something ive always liked! :D ... hahah woohoo! not telling you what though. but i hope ill do good in it. cya guys!

2008-09-22T05:02:00.001-07:00

wont be writing poems or posting till exams over :) . cya!

2008-09-10T06:31:00.000-07:00

Somehow . ive been feeling rather mellow today .. lols dunno why though. also, i cant believe that i actually made a fool out of myself during recess. lols. ok got to go ! lols cya :D!

2008-09-09T06:17:00.000-07:00

Today seems rather dull for me. Nothing seemed to brighten my mood. Sigh . hopefully tomorrow will be the rainbow to my endless downpour.

2008-09-05T04:46:00.000-07:00

how i wish everyday was like today :) ..

And now i'll state something rash .. She had the most amazing .. SMILE XD

2008-08-25T08:55:00.000-07:00

W980i

=.= i hate terrapins who ask me to blog! grrr.. not only do they stink . they like to poop alot! xD .. woohoo! just few days ago i just bought myself a new phone :D .. and upgrade my line to have.. free SMSES! woohoo! this means my bill wont go skyhigh anymore! w980i babeh! .. i love this phone xD .. i go liao .. lazy blog lurh . take care.

2008-08-19T07:22:00.000-07:00

heres the poem rebec told me to write about the topic is .. love. kindly comment at the tagboard when your free ;) ty ! ..

LOVE

What is love?

Where can i find it?

Can it be found hidden under the earth?

Or perhaps its a gift from up and above,

Could love really be so wonderful?..

That it could make the most selfish of people start thinking for others?

And make the most sensible of person do something bloody stupid,

Have they lost their mind?Why do they even bother?..

What keeps their heart going on?

What keeps their feelings strong?

Could it be the love that they have yearned for?..

Or maybe the feeling of someone being by your side that they've always longed..

I guess love would always be something I'd ponder about,

And, It'll always be my object of doubt.

Till then, I'll keep on questioning myself..

What is love?..

2008-08-18T05:35:00.000-07:00

mondays were never good. i probably screwed my literature big time . and now ive caused my mum to cry . the best part is . i dunno who is to be blamed . her for her sarcasm which i detest so much. or me for shooting her back . i swear to god if dad decides to intervene this situation i might just walk out of the house after hes done with scolding me .

2008-08-17T06:47:00.000-07:00

Oh ya. heres a poem i wrote during maths lesson ..

Friends

When you need someone,

Who would accompany you till the depths of despair,

When you need someone,

Who you know will be there,

One who'd be willing enough to lend you a helping hand,

When you've fallen down,

And be there for you regardlessly,

With the slightest sight of frown,

And perhaps,

After a break up and when you start to cry,

He'll cry with you,

'Cos what your feeling.. he feels it too,

And thru thick and thin.. he'll stick with you till the end,

For now this is what i call a friend.

2008-08-17T06:43:00.000-07:00

sigh.. something's been bugging me lately. and i have no idea what it is . its been giving me the blues . and regardless of what i try to do to get my mind off it, nothing seems to work . hais. i guess this is one of those times when i just wanna be alone ..

2008-08-09T07:40:00.001-07:00

Friday

hmm.. lol..i've been rather lazy to update this few days.. nothing much has happened though .. yesterday, i stayed back after the national day celebration in school .. Mr chang la .. caught me before i can leave the school gate.. basket. nvm ba !thanks to that im gonna finish my dnt folio soon sio! xD .. wakakaka ! .. after doing dnt at school ..I went to adrie's house to slack and eat ben and jerrys ice cream while waiting for zuh to come so we can go to the gym together . lawls .

Zuh took over one hour just to reach sia .. even though he stayed nearer to him than me =.= .. Then when Zuh reached adrie's doorstep and rang his doorbell .. we decide to make him wait outside the door for five minutes for taking freaking long to arrive.During those fire minutes i could have sworn i heard him cursing out side adries house like some kind of maniac .. wakakaka .. at about 3 pm we decided to go to the gym and amazingly we spent 2 hours working out. and you know what the best part was..? I DIDNT FEEL EXHAUSTED ! :D .. woohoo!from now on IM going to the gym once a week!! xD ..the treadmill was the best part of the gym! XD however, while i was doing my crunches there was this stupid old lady who ruined my workout for that day D: .. she complained to the security guard that we were being a nuisance when the whole time we were quietly minding our own business T_T .. nvm la .. she gonna die soon anyway. XD ..adrie started to scold the security guard for being biased and we slacked by the pool as zuhaili went swimming.xD..

Saturday

Hmm.. todae was rather boring though . All i did today was slacked and slacked and slacked summore! >< .. adrie did asked me to follow him bugis to buy some shirts.. but i guessed my mum was reluctant to let me go out.. so i had to tell adrie i couldn't make it .. ._. nvm ba! for her sake of spending more time with me .. I STAYED AT HOME! see mum? Am I the best son you ever had what!? :D .. elias and faiz is nowhere near best! XD .. ok la i gotta go finish up dnt and continue to play world of warcraft! .. cya !

2008-08-04T03:16:00.001-07:00

crapped abit at jonathan's house with adrie, zuh , redzuan , naufal and mustaqim . lols .. was kinda fun . haha. seeing redzuan playing soccer on the PS2 was hilarious.. also rather noisy. tsk.. nothing else to say ba.. kind of no mood.. take care .

2008-07-29T06:53:00.000-07:00

Tuesdays were never good for me . Fuck . Just because i draw poorly doesn't mean you can insult me .How the fuck was i suppose to know it was wrong.Fine i know i slacked too much. But fucking gimme a break can? zzz .. And those who like to talk behind people . kindly fuck off. The slaughter house for chickens is probably where you belong.

2008-07-28T06:57:00.000-07:00

boo! damn tired sia todae .. i only slept for 3 hrs yesterday.. and i stayed back in school till 7 pm doing dnt .. and im not planning to sleep for tonight ..=/ .. lawls .. poor zuh .. lost some of his papers required for dnt . now he has to do it again . oh well . lawls . sia la .. tmr must hand in sia .. dunno whether i can finish siol.. die ._. .. ok la i go do my dnt oredi . heres a poem i wrote while slacking during chemistry lesson.

Silent Prayers

A night so beautiful,

A day so bright,

An orphan praying softly,

Hoping his life would turn out right,

With a life full of happiness,

A life filled with joy,

A life without sadness,

For this is the silent prayers, of a little boy.

2008-07-26T09:07:00.000-07:00

hmm.. so todae i went for dnt till about 12.30 .. then when back home to change and went to watch a movie with zuh at orchard cineleisure ..while waiting for the movie to start. we went window shopping for awhile .. saw alot of nice clothes .. and once again. i can never go shopping for a long amount of time .. cos i'll start to yawn and yawn and yawn .. lawls ..and to think the x-files:I want to believe was actually a pretty good movie .. lawls .. after that went to search for a present for baka's bday .. unfortunately couldnt find anything nice ._. .. so .. we went back home .. xD .. damn exhausted sia now .. aihs. better go do my dnt . i dont want drop it D: ..

2008-07-21T06:47:00.000-07:00

hmm .. lols today .. i got a new ear piece!! xD .. its white in colour!haha! finally i wont have any ear piece with problems for my mp4! .. see baka! now you no nid hate my dead blog! =x .. hmm .. todae me, mus, naufal , zuh and adrie slacked at jon's house . haha .. i never wanna play pro evolution soccer with zuhaili .. no mercy sia . i kena thrashed till damn jialat sia .. lols .. then we watched jackass 2.5 .. boy was that freaky .. the people were doing stupid stuff sia .. lawls .. like putting powder in the ass hole and all .. lmao . i bet if you watched you'd be freaked out too sia .. lawls . ok la i go lurh .. time to finish up my dnt . cya!

2008-07-17T04:12:00.000-07:00

yoohoo! .. lawls . just finished watching kamen rider kiva . and im proud to say i like it! lawls . call me childish i dont care. damn . my mum off days finishes tommorow . D: .. sad sia . but nvm! tmr get to go with my family to The Oriental to eat dinner .. xD i get to see all my colleagues again! i sure miss them! .. april, susan and all! woohoo! .. lawls . xD .. hmm .. i had no mood for todays paper ..dunno why . i kinda daydreamed for the first 30 mins ._. .. anyway . i also realised some of the 4/2 ppl are stuck up . no offence. and its not you guys wilson . :) .. i noe my friends were in the wrong for off-ing jon's power supply . hmm .. i gotta go bah. gotta write a poem about a group of friends . cya :)

2008-07-03T02:23:00.000-07:00

I guess.. No matter what i do. Im always the one who ends up .. not knowing who are my real friends. hais..

2008-07-02T04:38:00.000-07:00

BOO! .. lols weee .. i love when one of my family is celebrating their bday :D .. i get to eat piiiiiiizzzzzza!! xD .. anyway nothing much to post for todae .. oh ya.. heres a video about a lion eating a man .. quite scary and sad .. 'cos the family can do nth but watch the husband/father of the child die.. being eaten by the lion >< .. enjoy!

2008-07-01T01:21:00.001-07:00

hmm.. its been awhile since i blogged . lols . guessed its only 'cos my N's lvls are coming . hmm .. many things has happened since i last blogged .. but somethings are left better unsaid .. =/ .. Today at sch was rather boring though .. zuh left class for his O's lvl oral . So .. im left with no one else other than adrie , redzuan and bobby to bug .. xD .. then after school i slacked with bobby and redzuan under a block. slacked until about 3.30 .. then went home .. lols ..talked about alot of stupid things.. anyway . now its 11.10 pm sia .. just got off the phone with baka . lawls . T_T world of warcraft is having a server update.. for 8 hrs !! damn !.. grr T_T.. sadded sia .. hmm .. tmr got sch lurh .. i better go sleep .. cya :)..

2008-06-23T03:15:00.001-07:00

I guessed i finally realised that i want to study. Regardless of anything .Though my parents and teachers have already lost hope on me. I'll .. just try my best .. and prove to them . that i can. And once i'm able to support myself . I'm moving out of the house dad and mum.You know every time you both tell me off when i do something wrong .. all i hear from your mouth is that I'm being a burden to you both .Well i'm sorry i can't be who you want me to be.But cant you just let me live a simple life. thats all i want . i dont wanna be some CEO of a company . or the General Manager of some well-known hotel .. I just want the simplest of things.As you realised . I've never asked for anything anymore.Maybe just some cash to go out . But thats all i asked for .Even the psp which you thought i stole. I earned it with every dime i saved up .You think that selling my things which i no longer use is wrong . Well let me tell you that I will never get addicted to selling my things .I'm really sick and tired of all your assumptions , mum . Hais.. i guess i'll stop here. Gotta go jogging with my cousin ..

2008-06-21T01:37:00.001-07:00

It's been quite long since i blogged . lols . sorry .I was kinda busy and all . anyway . Just came back from cycling at Pulau Ubin . lawls . tiring sia . cycle every whr .. then then .. the bicycle chain while i was cycling.. and i fell .. ._. ..so i had to walk all the way back to the bicycle shop with cuts and bruises on my legs and hands .. i guess the feng shui there not so good ba! xD ..Thankfully there were two annonymous girls who kindly accompanied me while walking back to that bicycle shop . If they do , by chance read this . i really want to thank them .. XD .. ok la . gotta go bath then i wanna write a poem . ciaos guys .. and.. err.. girls .. ! x)

2008-06-11T22:19:00.000-07:00

Boo .. just woke up .. xD hmm.. missed dnt .. crap sia .. ahahaaha.. what can i say?.. i freaking stayed up till 4 am last nite . lols .. after toking to baka i went to play dota .. xD .. baka you read this dont scold me hor .. xD i couldnt sleep >< .. anw i go play dota and WOW ba. tc :)

2008-06-11T02:33:00.000-07:00

boo! .. haha just came back from studying with baka , norvan and rebec.. it only lasted less than 2 hours though .. cos i was playing at the lan gaming shop >_< .. sorry if i made you guys wait long .. >_< hmm next week maybe watching movie with baka .. hope she doesnt have sudden plans again.. =/ .. oh well.. gotta go play dota .. ciaos.

2008-06-04T10:25:00.000-07:00

wrote another poem .. in less than 10 mins .. please comment it ba .. hais .. =/ ..

Its just like you..
To make me look like some fool..
What have i wronged?.. What did i do?..
You know. You always say, "Have you ever listened to me?"
Well why don't you record yourself telling me off and maybe you'd see..
Why sometimes i dont want to listen anymore?..
What do you take me for?..Some twelve year old kid who barely knows nuts about life?..
OR perhaps you still think of me as immature ..is that what your trying to say?..
'Cos what you said tonight.. your very words..it just cuts me like a knife..
I apologise ..for it seems no matter the difference.I'll always be to your dismay.

I'm sorry for that mum .I'm really sorry.

2008-06-02T07:54:00.000-07:00

I hate the word obsession . every time i hear this word when i get scolding . my parents dont know me anymore. so what if my mum tried to reach out to me .im tired of it . im tired of trying to understand them. i dont give a shit anymore. i studied okae?.. i studied. cos i wanted to make you both proud . but looking at my results. all you can do is shoot me down everytime i talk nicely and think im obessesed with the computer. Do i skip meals and hang on the comp all day?.. dont gimme that bullshit that given the chance i will. cos all you do is assume ill do it . im fucking sick of it . dad, mum . just give me a fucking break . you think im a bum? so be it . give up on me. im sorry i had to be your black sheep of the family.

2008-06-01T08:43:00.000-07:00

booo! .. todae was rather tiring . my dad dragged me and brought me to the board walk ._. .. at nite summore T_T .. no lites.. boohoo .. i took some pics.. and .. still i dont find anything supernatural .. boo T_T .. nvm! next time the 4/3 class boys book chalet at changi . we go supernatural hunting! woohoo! . ok la . gotta go train my dota and disturb my frens on World Of Warcraft™ .. and baka . i never fail to oppose you ! HAHA . anytime you need someone to talk to . look at your phonebook 'cos i think it has my number rite?:) .. ciaos ppl .

2008-05-30T09:26:00.000-07:00

booo! todae was rather fun . xD .. went to hair dresser to cut my hair . as usual .. the hair dressers all gather around me pinch my cheeks .. grr .. T_T .. hmm .. then my mum and i went to lerk thai to eat.. the fried rice didnt taste really nice .. =/ .. but the tapioca during desert was just wonderful! xD woohoo! .. i love tapioca and coconut milk :D .. hmm .. and val .. i will find a way to carry the acid .. and WHEN I DO .. YOUR SCREW'D XD ..oh ya ! .. there may be side effects when i pour the acid on you .. i think one of the effects is that it ll make you shrink more .. =x .. oh boy .. such nice side effects! .. gotta go now .. my mum is sharpening the chopper .. and i dont plan to be tomorrow's dinner .. >< cya!

2008-05-30T00:11:00.000-07:00

boooo~ . xD just woke up .. lawls .. damn tired sia .. went to catch a midnite movie with my uncle and aunty .. and .. CHRONICLES OF NARNIA : PRINCE CASBIAN WAS GREAT! xD but i felt the show more for adults rather than children .. =/ .. woohoo . i congratulate myself for not going for structured class for a week ._. .. now im in deepshit .. mr sim called my mum . and i guess shes dragging me with her to go for the parent teacher meeting with mr sim .. URGH .. im screwed X_X .. oh well .. gonna go play WoW now .. cya ;D ..

2008-05-28T08:34:00.000-07:00

boo! happy birthday bunny! your 16 and still short :D .. lols .. sad aint it?! you wait! once your eighteen i'll pour acid on you ;D .. tsk .. this few days just aint my day. feeling rather moody. so i stayed at home .. and trained my dota.. but i didnt seem to improve at all .. maybe in "denying" i did .. but the rest i guess i havent yet.. and .. i still like her .. i cant stop myself from liking her . lols . i guess ill let my emotion take its own course . lets just hope it wont end up in another crash course .. :) .. ciao ppl .

2008-05-21T04:38:00.000-07:00

hmm .. my lil bro went for camp .. kinda miss him abit .. i hope hes orite .. =/ .. gonna write a poem soon .. ill post it very soon ..and for todae .. i overslept and in the end never go school .. lols then had misunderstanding between kelmond and bobby.. i apologise for wad ever i did wrong lurh .. but no nid suan me till liddat .. say until like cannot trust me .. zzz kelmond you oso got tell ppl about things i did .. you think i dono? .. then still can say you never paoto .. zz ill end this post here ba.. gotta dota .. cya all ..

2008-05-20T07:17:00.000-07:00

wrote a new poem .. while hearing better in time .. >< did it in less than 10 mins lurh.. comment my work pls .. :\..

Liking her is somehow slowly killing me..
I know I should probably stop ..but..
I really, really like her alot you see..
"Still got many other girls what?..
Thats what my friends would repeatedly tell me ..
But I still have to forget her and move on with life?..
Even if forgetting someone isn't what i'm really good at..
And how when i tried to stop liking her..
It always cuts thru my heart just like a knife..
I guess .. no point having something to fret..
And carry on with this life..
'Cos this very sinister world stops for nobody..
Even if your life was to crumble entirely..

comment at my tag okaes ? :\ .. take care readers..

2008-05-20T05:47:00.000-07:00

boos ! hmm .. todae celebrated those people who had their birthdays passed during term two.. and i liked the cake :) .. and todae was day one of jogging.. hope i can keep fit when i train to sustain my stamina .. :) hmm .. some ppl just give empty threats lurh .. why dont you post it on your blog oso norvan .. wouldnt it make you feel alot more happier? .. one word .. Immature. get this word in your head . cos its staying there.

2008-05-16T08:43:00.000-07:00

booos! .. somehow .. i find myself liking someone oredi .. =/ .. Though i guess its one-sided .. i guess i have to live with it .. wrote a poem while feeling what i'm feeling now though .. =/ .. i'll end another short post with the poem i just wrote.. take care .. :)

Fallen for you

I like this girl..

Who I'm always close to ..

I like this girl..

Who for once.. I'm afraid to woo..

Perhaps..It's better to just gaze at her from far..

Rather than to awkward our friendship..

But i feel like I really like her la..

Yet I find myself in a dilemma of happiness or hardship..

I know my friends tell me to just head front ..

But I guess its alot easier said than done..

I guess I'll wait for when the time is right..

Then maybe..just maybe I'd get the chance to tell you..

That it's just me and you tonight ..

And that .. I .. Love.. You..

2008-05-13T07:03:00.000-07:00

todaes just not my day .. hais .. Why do you guys hate me so much .. haven't i alwaes joked around?.. i tried not to show my anger and all .. i really do .. but none of you realise how hard issit rite?.. hais.. i never felt welcomed any where.. not in school.. neither with my frens .. hais.. lets just end this post with a poem i wrote last year ..

Sadness of a thousands cries,

It burns thru his bleeding heart,

How it'll torments him thru his entire life,

How he agonized the pain of his heart being torn apart,

He`s suffering all alone,

With no one to love and care,

It`s something never to be known,

How life sometimes can be unfair,

He breathed his last words,

How selfless can he be,

He only wished for time to be backward,

So he`d had all the time again to express his love to her..

2008-05-07T05:03:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to myself .. =/ ..

2008-05-06T07:13:00.000-07:00

Hey ! .. lol another poem on its way ! :) .. just that this time .. my fren wrote it .. i just edited most of it .. need comments lurh .. xD its about someone's dad dying from cancer ><

Dad .. don't go ..

As soft winds sweep away the days..

I look back on life through this very haze..

Remember playgrounds, parks and friends..

In childlike gaze that never seem to end..

The laughter in a game of catch..

Should memories ever attach..

To innocence in youthful eyes..

Catching the ball to my Dad's surprise..
I recall my first bike, first wreck..

Who picked me up and said.. "What the heck?"

Convinced me to give it just one more try..

While, my knees were skinned, I realised I forgot to cry..

I felt joy just knowing he was there..

Making him proud was what I only cared..

There was nothing that I couldn't do..

My heart held fast that to be true..
Though teenage years were kind of rough..

I sure was neither big nor did I feel tough..

You taught me the difference of wrong and right..

And never to ever start a fight..

So I had to learn the hard way to stand..

Still, with each lump, I found your hand..

You were my one and only inner strength..

And stubborn pride of yours with equal length..
But there the line of fate had unfatefully drawn..

With just one blink and everything went wrong..

I found myself facing the sun..

I couldn't accept the fact ..

That you were really gone..

Eyes blinded by a void inside..

I could not believe that you had really died..

Alas finding it to be true..

I can't help but feel so lost without you..

Please, Dad, today just hear my call..

I'm sorry for the time I dropped that ball..

My life is wrecked, my knees still skinned..

.My emotions grew ruly and rather undisciplined..

I can't get up.. I really tried..

Please don't get upset if I ever cried.

Though I can't fight what I can't see..

Please, Dad, say you're still proud of me.
:) comment lurhs! thanks!

2008-05-05T04:14:00.000-07:00

More poems coming your way .. :)

The crimson roses among the dead weeds..

Beautifully painted in colours of blood..

It reminds me of bitter sweet love indeed..

How it murdered romeo and left him with a wounded heart..

He didnt wanna be left with nothing but memories..

But i guess he has no one to blame for this unfateful tragedies,

He lost everything.. hw that dampened his life..

He really thought this girl he loved.. had a chance of being his wife ..

And spend the rest of her life with him..

But he now knows that it`ll never happen ..

Oh how his dying heart screams..

I guess life is never fair..

Forever his life .. will be drenched in darkness and despair..

Please comment lurh =/ .. nid improvements :)

2008-05-04T08:27:00.001-07:00

hey guys .. wrote a new poem .. if you dont mind .. can help me comment on my tag board ? .. thanks =) .. its quite long though ..><

As i gazed at the serene night sky..

Thoughts in my mind just ran unspoken..

Was our love just some lie?..

Or was it unfated for my heart to end up broken..

I guess those two months weren't much to last..

But I just don't understand ..

Why it had to end so fast?..

Was that pretty boy of yours really that perfect?..

Was i no better ?..

I dont understand .. what did i lack?..

Did i asked so much?..

I only wanted to spend time with you..

I dont see what's wrong with that?..

Isn't that what couples do?..

Or was it just an excuse..

To end this relationship of just us two..

Or perhaps to you .. i was no longer of use..

I just dont understand .. why did it have to end so fast..

Those times we spent together..

I tried to take it of my mind ..by keeping myself busy..

But i felt no better..

I guess maybe, just maybe.. the pain in my heart will fade slowly..

I just hope as time goes by slow i'll get over you surely..

If anything needs to be improved tag me yea?:)

2008-04-27T18:52:00.000-07:00

i understand what you meant now. you didnt have to hide HIM from me. I could have understand right away. IF you had bothered to listen to the song i was listening on the mp4. you'll realise that i suspected HIM for quite awhile .But .. i wanted to trust you .. so even though i had the urge to check your smses.. i didnt .. i didnt at all.well take care. i dont think i'd wanna be friends. sorry . our relationships are over. when we meet . we'll just past by each others. i wont even smile .Cos without you .i ll just be miserable at best ..

Katie, don't cry, I know
You're trying your hardest
And the hardest part is letting go
Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling and you know it's haunting
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright
And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but i want it so

Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best

You're all that I hoped I'd find
In every single way
And everything I could give
Is everything you couldn't take
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay

Because I know I'm good for something
I just haven't found it yet
But I need it

So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best

Ladada ladada ladadaoh ohhh

And this will be the first time in a week
That I'll talk to you
And I can't speak
It's been three whole days since I've had sleep
Because I dream of his lips on your cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I'm not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly

So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know he's there)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, he stares)
I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you
But without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you
Oh, without you I'll be miserable at best

2008-04-24T03:43:00.000-07:00

its oredi the 3rd day .. she no longer picks up my call after she finishes school .. have i done something wrong ..? .. cause .. im really dying slowly .. i know her school work must be pretty busy .. but .. atleast try to make time for me?.. its like .. we no longer chat much .. we use to chat from night to the early morning .. but now .. we dont even chat for more than 1 hour .. hais .. whats going on ?..

2008-04-23T02:02:00.000-07:00

hais .. my laopo has been busy with her school work this few days .. im starting to feel rather lonely .. she rarely has time for me anymore .. if i say that i don't feel neglected .. i'd probably be lying ..

i really wish this feeling would go away soon ..its killing me .. no matter what i do .. whether i occupy my self with my online games .. or try studying .. i still feel rather moodless .. if this is a test of love for both of us .. then i wouldnt wanna know the results ..

but no matter wad .. i guess ill try to cope with what im going thru .. :) ..

laopo .. i really love you lots ..

i really miss the times we hug ..

and the times when my lips touches yours ..

no matter whether while we're watching a movie .. or when we're spending time together alone..i really miss those times .. even .. if it was only a few days ago..

and the way you alwaes act cute and apologise even if ue weren't in the wrong.. just to cheer me up when im in a bad mood ..

I dont wanna turn all this into nothing but mere distant memories ..

laopo .. i even went to top up my handphone prepaid despite not having much money .. just to sms you and talk to ue ..

and laopo .. sometimes .. please do understand. I become moodless for a reason .. im not crazy you know .. == ..

i hope this will briefly explain to you about my mood this few days laopo.. :)

P.S,

ILOVEYOU

14.o2.o8 184<33

2008-04-21T04:32:00.000-07:00

so .. my blog probably died long ago .. lawls .. XP .. our 2nd month just passed one week ago .. x) .. woooos .. .. .. hais .. ive been very moody this few days.. I guess im not used to dardar being busy and all.. sometimes i feel so lonely .. ive got no one else to talk to ..hais ..

sometimes she takes so long to reply my smses.. sometimes .. its worst .. she doesnt reply me back at all .. i dunno how long can i handle it .. im just gonna go nuts one day ..

what makes it more fucked up is that ive been feeling a sharp pain at my chest .. is something wrong with me?.. i was referred to changi general hospital .. the doctor in the hospital even wanted to follow me up .. to another doctor .. hais .. oh well .. better dying than live painfully.. =/

..and i wish i wasnt so moody .. but i just cant help it .. rite now .. i just feel like blasting screamo music .. just to soothe my bleeding heart .. :) ..thats the only thing that cheers me up regardless of anything ..

psp oh psp .. where are ue? .. i haven got to know you well enough .. i rarely get to touch it nowdays .. oh wells .ive lost my mood to play games and all anyway .. so ..yea ..

ok .. thats about it .. i think ill go blast my music on my mp4 and sit in a corner .. ciaos ..

sometimes i wish we'd exchange each others lives so that ue'd feel what im feeling and going thru now .. cos half of me already wants to break down and cry ..

2008-03-29T10:14:00.001-07:00

boo! .. x) .. waa waa wee waa~ so long bo blog again.. wakakakas! still lvl 130 in maple .. damn slow can? @$@%#^ .. grr .. and dardar .. you still haven well sia .. =( .. get well soon orites ? .. everyday worrying about you lurh .. T_T hmm .. i feel hungry rite now .. should i order mcdonalds? =x .. nah joking .. i just said that to annoy my dardar .. xD .. ok la .. nth else to write lurh ! tata! <33 you lots dardar! .. =) ciao~

2008-03-21T12:36:00.000-07:00

weeee~ haven been posting lately .. x) many things happened sia .. My laopo had meet the parents session with my mum .. =x im sooooo glad it went well?^^ .. and our one month anni just passed by ! hehe .. im so glad we made it thru one month .. well .. to other people it maybe short .. but to me .. it doesnt matter! wakakakakas .. todae me and dardar went to meet vonvon vrooom(my dardar the mei)! she damn chubby and cute sia! LAWLS ..then after that she went back home to eat her chilli crab before spending time with me building a wooden dragon ==! abit sad dardar cant torn over my house T_T hurhur .. ..then .. then after i sent her home .. i bought and enjoyed a plate of duck rice all to myself.. HAHA! but .. T_T I GOT CHEATED! .. DAMN! .. boohoo .. plain rice.. GRRR! .. oh well ! gotta go! oh ya .. and dardar .. mai no confidence .. orites? =) .. i haf my reasons when im moody sometimes .. BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN IM PETTY HOR! =33 .. tata ! love ue dardar ^^v take care all!

2008-03-05T05:24:00.001-08:00

booos ~ haven been posting this few days .. >_< .. sorry ! still recovering since last friday .. weeee~ but at the moment .. im still slowly recovering my horrible throat .. ARGH~ its annoying sia .. wads worst is that its making me lose my appetite .. T_T and when that happens .. dardar will force me eat porridge .. -VOMITS- EEEE I DUN LIKE PORRIDGE T_T .. hurhur ..hmm .. and should i play back maple? .. i dunno barhs .. if i go back .. i might tio bully by dardar T_T . everytime like dat sia . T_T k ba .. i wan go rest liao tata!! love you lots dardar !! ^^ muacks!

2008-03-01T05:53:00.001-08:00

As I was hearing "Toni Gonzaga - Catch Me I'm Falling" while lying on my bed .. i started to think..about her and all... is it just me? .. or have we both been smsing and talking to each other less?.. i dunno .. half the time i feel happy to be with her .. but some how .. the other half .. is the total opposite .. why must love be so fragile? .. if i lose her ..id lose myself too i swear ..i just dunno wad to do..i dont even noe whether to smile or break down and cry now .. hais ..someone .. pls tell me wad to do..

2008-02-28T19:16:00.000-08:00

this few days.. many things happened .. and well .. ive nothing much to say on wad ue did to me dad .. i cant believe ue threw uer own son out ..even if i had skipped school the day before without letting you and mum know .. have you ever tried crawling under my skin .. and feel how i feel? ... yea i know . you must pretty much think that im the black sheep of the family huh ? .. zzz one of these days .. im just gonna go mia .. and never come back. i swear ill do that .. let me lighten some burden from uer shoulders..=)

God..i hate you for alwaes ruining my life . if ue want to see me suffer so much .. why dont ue just take my life away .. on the day i get to spend time with her .. you made me fall ill.. and right now .. im pretty confused ..if i lose her .. i swear .. wad im gonna do wont look very nice ..

2008-02-26T03:57:00.000-08:00

weee~ sch ended at 3.05 .. X_X and .. i accompanied zuhaili to go eat at the underground minimart after that.. cup noodles again T_T.. then i took a cab to my dardar de house .. changed to my normal clothes .. and "trained" my audi .. =3 ..waakaka .. i realise i really suck bad in this kind of games .. x) i left my bag at her house and left at about four .. to accompany my dardar go caffoure to return her working uniform..on the way there .. happened to see suhailah and latifah on the train..guess they were going home.. >< ..then after that we wanted to take taxi .. but we then realise the mrt would be alot better .. besides .. more time to hold her hand and all ? xD .. uhoh.. dardar better not read this .. if not i die ! xD ..hmm ..then .. then .. on the mrt .. got this stupid short lady keep diao-ing my dardar sia .. >< NVM LO! we sms-ed each other and talked bad about her =3 ..we both smart anot?! xD .. wakakaka! hmm .. we took a cab back to her place.. i changed back into my uniform .. kissed her and went on my way back home ~ first time i came back without getting nagged!! woohoo~ ok la .. now waiting for my charkwayteow and fried oyster to be brought home !! im hungry sia .. =/ cya~

2008-02-24T02:48:00.000-08:00

todae`s just another regular day barh .. but .. when i was watching 50 first date .. it suddenly got me thinking .. will our love just be temporary ..? .. or can it last? .. i dun want US to just be temporary.. i really dun wanna lose the person i love ..i know im being over-paranoid .. but i just feel very insecure todae .. hais .. oh well? ..and tmr's maths paper .. i'd probably fail i guess .. and get screwed upside down by my mum and dad just like on after every exam and common test =) .. and ..I found another best frend bsides my alwaes faithful shadow .. its none other than my mp4 .. its been with me thru thick and thin.. .. laopo dun get jealous hor .. i still lurve ue the most and I'll alwaes will..=) ..i guess i'll go slack at the beach liaos .. pray hard i dont fall into the sea and drown .. =) .. cya..

oh ya .. my mum was recommended by my mums's boss to come work at las vegas as the assistant front office manager of some hotel there .. i mite haf to migrate .. hais ..i dont really wanna look forward to that ..

2008-02-22T22:47:00.000-08:00

watched jumper with laopo todae .. boo it sucked can ? one. the story too long winded X_X .. two .. he left the enemy on a mountain ..@E@$#^ wad kind of idiot would do that?! sheesh .. then after that we went to eat at pizza hut .. x) .. walan eh .. while queueing for a table ..this uncle infront of me sibei guailan sia .. cb if she didnt stop me he die liao x_X.. i love baked rice lalalala ~ ... lmao! that was random x_X .. after that we went to the beach slack .. and gave me another blue black on my hand!!! T_T .. dardar .. stop biting me hao ma ?^^v .. lols .. ok la .. thats about all i shld post .. x) .. laopo .. im glad i met ue in maple tat day .. never regretted knowing ue .. ill love ue alwaes .. even if god came down to earth and shaked my hand .. ! =x wakakak ok la i go liao ! bb~

2008-02-21T03:39:00.001-08:00

another bad day for me barhs .. one .. i dun think id be able to pass my science common test .. two .. i just got blamed by my parents for stealing when i've never stole anything in my life .. is this wad it means to be the black sheep of the family? .. hais ..if my had not told me to not run away .. id haf runaway long ago .. i hate my life .. i really do .. salutations for this bleeding heart of mine ..

2008-02-20T03:19:00.000-08:00

boos .. i hate todae ..it sucks .. really .. one .. tio lectured by both parents .. keep saying im 15 not 50.. i nid to be 50 before i can haf a girlfren meh? .. zz .. sometimes i feel like running away .. but .. hais ..i dun wan worry my laopo barhs .. =( .. if only i could get out of my house more often .. and not get F*ing locked up at home doing nth.. =/ .. i cant even go to the beach to feel the breeze and relax with my laopo .. ue noe hw sucky that is? .. i hate my parents.. i really do ..ARGH!

2008-02-18T04:49:00.000-08:00

boos~ .. back to blog again ! .. ._. .. BLAHS! .. im gonna get zero for my physics test i did todae .. =( .. i slept thru the whole paper .. cos i didn't noe how to even do one questions .. then after that .. i had eng common test lo ..i noe i shldnt be saying this .. but it was damn easy sia! .. x) .. weeee~ .. then waited for my darr at the bus stop till nearly FOUR in the afternoon .. when she said she 'll meet me at 3.40 .. SHEESH =3 .. so .. yea.. then me and her went to whitesands to buy A3 paper for dnt .. on the way we got rather hungry .. so yea.. she went to buy food at mcnoners lo x) .. we saw alvin , jolene and adeline lo .. lmao .. they were like going tsktsktsk .. X_X .. i wonder why .. =3 .. then after buying the stack of papers .. which costed $7.70 X_X .. daylight robbery*COUGH* .. i now know that .. i can never study more than 30 mins .. my darr was the witness to that discovery!!!! x) ..lalala~ ..after that we went back to my house to place my bag .. and walk to the beach~ actually wanted to bring my darr go see the red house .. but in the end got lost .. X_x so we just head back to the direction of the beach lo.. then on the way there met we hazim and his frens .. xD by the time we manage to sit down and just spend time between the two of us.. we had only 1 hrs left to ourselves .. =/ .. that sucks! ..i miss her so much can?.. =( .. damn sad.. didnt even get to send her back.. but atleast she kissed me b4 i went up the lift .. x) <33 weee~ .. i wonder why she like malu liddat.. maybe she has a theory that if she kisses me she'd turn into a frog .. xD .. wakakak .. ok tats all i did todae barh !..now talking to my darr .. x) .. poor dardar ..her nose so itchy cos its dusty at home =(.. aww lala! muacks! i go le ! love ue darr! cya ~

2008-02-15T06:12:00.000-08:00

boo ~ todae was one of the best days i had in my life siaks? .. dunno why though .. went out with zhulian baby ..~ she damn silly can? =33 .. bought her a giant duck so that she no nid to torture me .. just hope she wont bit the ducks tail like hw she bit my arm T_T .. we watched CJ7 .. it was damn cute can? . . although my arm was abit numb barh.. cos she laid her head on my shoulder.. so yea .. xD but it didnt matter though .. wakakaka! kept asking her quit smoking .. diedie say she quitting slowly .. HOR ! ue dun quit soon i pull uer hair and pinch uer nose hor baby! .. lols ok la i go le ~ cya !

2008-02-13T05:39:00.000-08:00

todae .. i had pe till 4.30 .. then followed adrie go collect his valentine gift from x-craft .. wakakakas ..the dog chain was quite nice though. after that we ate some blackpepper hotdog which i didnt like much .. and .. yea .. i went home to relax .. only to get blamed by my mum for smth i did'nt do .. aihs.. life sucks .. i got so angry i just took my bike and cycled to the park .. to relax .. its so nice .. to sit on the cliff at the beach .. just sitting alone .. with no one but my shadow .. It was so soothing .. just to sit there and feel the breeze .. came bk at around 9pm .. and i just realised .. IM A WAIST 34 !! WOOOHOO! im losing weight .. x) .. wakakaks ..oh well .. kk barhs i go lers .. tata! felicia darr .. i miss ue wor ..come bk from work soon kkaes?=) .. muacks!

2008-02-13T05:37:00.001-08:00

zhu-lian ~~ .. im so glad ue accepted me .. i was over the moon when ue said yes to me on the phone this morning .. x) ..i'll never hurt ue .. i assure ue .. muacks ! wo ai ni 1314 3344! .. >< ..rite now .. i m just waiting for ue to come back from work .. <33 ..

2008-02-11T04:57:00.000-08:00

boos ! 3 more days to valentine day.. ._. .. oh well.. will godiva chocolates do? .. =x .. lalala~ wakaka ! .. just wrote a new poem .. dunno whether its good.. its not done yet though ..

so .. wad about todae.. oh ya! me adrie and razzan went to look for valentine day gifts.. wakaka! we all came up with our own ideas! although im not sure of mine .. hmm ..=/ other than that .. giues theres nth else..cya!! x)

2008-02-10T01:59:00.001-08:00

Its been awhile sinced i posted .. although its been many days, nothing much seems to happen ..=/ todae i went to Isetan to buy some pants and shirts .. got quite a few .. x) .. and from tomorrow onwards .. im going joggin! weee ! too much of mcdonalds already sia .. im gonna end up like a giant sumo if i continue to eat fast food late at nite x_X oh well.. k la i go play WoW nw ..CYA!!!!!!

And to Someone, i got update my blog okae?=33

2008-01-27T01:45:00.001-08:00

hais .. my life turned upside down liao .. no matter how i tried to turn it back upright .. it just wont do .. is this how it really feels to be heart broken?.. I just want to love and feel loved .. tats all.. but .. Its gone and over ..I guess being a game freak .. is much less hurting aint it?..

2008-01-01T06:07:00.000-08:00

i wanna be bk to my old cheerful self.. but .. i realise .. that person in me has oredi died.. gone and forgotten. Rest In Peace .. my dear fren.

2007-12-31T22:37:00.000-08:00

weee .. came bk at 4 am.. i spent my newyear with my colleagues .. it was rather nice la .. everyone was shaking hands and kissing each others cheek .. and some ppl found out that my mum was the duty manager of that hotel.. and were they shocked ..x) .. and since they weren`t any taxis near by .. me and james decided to hop onto faris's dads lorry ..it was dam windy sia! weeeee~ue noe .. as i watched the fireworks .. i didnt felt quite happy ..it was because .. i had no one special to spend it with .. hais .. oh well .. i go watch dgrayman.. cya!

2007-12-29T09:25:00.000-08:00

hmm .. todae .. i realised .. ue cant really trust anybody .. i saw for my ownself.. how one of my baggage master .. got backstabbed .. .. is this really a dog eat dog world?.. why cant we work together .. i just dont understand .. and i got closer to a new fren.. hes a great guy la .. atleast hes frendly ..sad he got bullied when he was young ..=x todae .. 70% capacity of the hotel was full ..x) .. dam ! todae collected over 30 bucks tip oni.. not like ytd .. i collected over 60 bucks .. x) then my baggage master asked me to join his band to play in a gig .. although i play the keyboard.. i dun really like this kind of thing .. even if i badly wanna follow my dads footsteps .. i dun think it will last me long anyway..sigh .. todaes briefing took dam long too.. bloody mandy ..took 5 yrs just to brief finish.. hais .. why must one of the duty managers be so long winded X_X ..ate at carls j.r with james todae .. gawd .. the burger was freaking big.. couldnt even eat half or it ..ive decided when sch starts .. every fri and saturday.. ill be working to earn my own pocket money ..=) ..take tat mum! ill be independent starting todae! P.S.i realise .. that malay girls are actually quite cute .. x) .. cya!

2007-12-26T05:59:00.000-08:00

todaes just not my fcking day. i took off just for her ..and i end up getting into a fcked up mood .. ARGH.. i really got nth to say.. zzz .. not only that .. my fcking back hurts soo much from standing up 8 hrs a day in gentleman shoes .. nobody cares rite? .. hais .. oh well.. ytd got daiji .. then end up getting injured ..z

2007-12-24T09:05:00.000-08:00

boos .. first .. i had iced tea and QIJI foodshop .. then i rushed to work.. changed into my working uniform .. and stood at the lift for 8 hours straight T_T .. sad rite? i noe .. then got this mix chinese and eurasian girl hu asked for my number..so ..i err.. gave her my num? ;x the other bellboys all pummeled me with jealousy ! muahahahah! in the end .. managed to get only 6 bucks tip todae .. oh well.. then my fren treated me to mcnoners ;D .. and we ate while on our way to the mrt station .. we argued on hus way of going to the mrt was faster .. and .. as usual .. i alwaes win! -coughcough-! now chatting with her .. i missed her thru out the whole day sia .. i wish she could fetch me from work .. everyday .. and go back home together .. hais .. oh well.. sweet dreams..

2007-12-22T07:46:00.001-08:00

blahs. so long haven update.. sorry ya? been working lately.. and everyday i dam tired ..x_X .. hais.. shes gone le.. too bad .. anyways ying happy ma i post?;x.. weee .. blahs.. nth much to say .. =/ .. hais ..been playing maple .. bro found a new gf.. AGAIN .. and rite now im gonna slp .. cos tmr morning shift and ill die if i dont wake up by 4 am x_X cya.loving her alwaes..

2007-12-12T09:24:00.000-08:00

BLAHS .. todae i watched alvin and the chipmunks with fengyue and my bro .. x) .. it was CUTE SIA .. b4 that me and my bro went to simei collect me and my daddys fone. it turns out i ate lots of unagi don .. ._. .. cant blame me lo.. i dam hungry .. x) .. suppose to meet HER .. but in the end .. aihs .. i also dun wanna tok about it .. time and again she never wants to go out .. not even to fetch her from work.Y must ue alwaes say sorry again and again .. the more ue say .. the less i believe in it ..my jie and kor all tell me to let go off her .. but i dun wan too .. cos she mean so much to me ..hais .. now i wont even get to go out with her until atleast end of the month.. my life is so F*CKED UP.

I gave ue my heart ,

I gave ue my soul,

I swore we wont part,

Till i die when im old,

It saddens me ue dun even wanna go out,

And its hurting that its me ue doubt..

How it kills me inside,

I guess that this feelings are probably belied..

2007-12-10T07:52:00.000-08:00

todae i woke up early .. boos .. 10 am my dad drag me go simlim square change this mechanical helicopter cos sadly .. MY BRO TORE THE WING APART.. zz..but atleast my daddy treated me to chicken rice at clementi ;DD .. the tofu dam nice sia .. crispy outside . inside soft ..just writing this makes me drool siaks . xD oh well nth much happen .. cya!

why issit sometimes .. i feel like crying .. even when ue spend more time with me ..
i just dun understand..hais..

2007-12-09T07:45:00.000-08:00

boos ~ todae was another boring day ._. .. woke up early .. go layer my hair .. and followed my dad go bedok eat char kuay teow~ .. so nice lo .. got oyster omelette as a side dish ^^.. T_T .. im now officially called mr ronald .. boos .. oh well thats all for todae ..=/..

p.s
sweet heart .=x dun think that uer not mrs ronald hor!;x

2007-12-05T09:57:00.000-08:00

its 2am.. and im crying . .i dont noe why .. it sucks .. being in the shadows .. it really does .. hais
i wish i could just end my life .. i really do.. hais .. maybe this is part of life .. ='] .. to be hurt ..so badly ..

2007-12-05T02:29:00.000-08:00

weeee~ woke up at 3pm .. ._. had a misunderstanding with my sweetheart .. glad nothing much happened ^^ .. sweetheart . .sorry okaes? didnt mean to say anything to upset ue.. woaini ! muacks!><.. anyways todae is rather boring .. got out of my bed .. sat on the couch . .watched some sitcoms .. and ordered .. SAKAE SUSHI!!! WOOHOO!!! right now im hearing the song elmos world .. =x maybe that'll be OUR song ^^ .. weee~ lalala~ lalala~ elmos song!.. xD
oh well . nth much to say today ba ..guess i'll end todaes post with a poem i just wrote ..x)

The crimson roses among the dead weeds..

Beautifully painted in colours of blood..

It reminds me of bitter sweet love indeed..

How it murdered romeo and left him with a wounded heart..

He didn't wanna be left with nothing but memories..

But i guess theres no one to blame for his bitter miseries ..

He lost everything..hw that saddens his life..

He really though the one he loved .. could end up as his wife..

And spend the rest of her life with him..

But it will never happen ..oh how his bleeding heart screamed..

But i guess .. life is never fair ..

Forever he'll live this sad life in despair ..

2007-12-04T03:49:00.000-08:00

i only went to sleep at 4 in the morning ..COS OF MY FREAKING COUSIN ..ARGH!I just hate it when he gets something .. blah!blah!blah! thru the whole nite .. grr! x_X

i never knew going to simei to repair my god-damn fathers hand phone was more fun than staying at home .. x) .. maybe the only reason i said it was fun cos i get to buy takoyaki and a unagi set meal ;DD . HMM.. wad else ...OH YA! i met Jackie at the pasar malam at white sand .. he was taking a walk with his friend ba .. she looked like someone from our school.. but i cant remember hu siaks .. =/ ..

hais .. my sweetheart is working full day today ..what makes it worst is that shes having fever and sore throat .. =/ .. god damn best denki for having lack of staff!! now she has to work so f*cking long hours .. just to compensate for those who didn't come for work.. #%$@.. oh well .. life's a b*tch huh .. ok .. so maybe i`ll post one poem per day ;D..

If your not for me ..

Then why does my world turn upside down without you..

If we`re not meant to be..

Then why when i say iloveyou, you say iloveyou too?..

If we`re not destined to be together for life..

Then why the hell do i alwaes dream of ue.. as my wife?..

If you cant be mine..

Then why cant i ever get you..out of my mind?..

If you cant be mine..

Then why when we try to let go.. it just wont untwine?..

If i dont nid ue .. why am i crying on my bed?..

If i dont nid ue .. why does uer name resound in my head?..

Baby i love you ..whether its wrong or right ..

I just wanna be with you tonight and always be by your side ..

ILU<33!~

2007-12-03T06:09:00.000-08:00

boos .. one day has passed .. so slow ._. shes probably on her way back home .. ^^ .. cant wait for her to call me ?.. i miss her lots siaks .. s =/ atleast we get to talk alot during her lunch and dinner break~ <33boring sia todae .. .. T_T .. even going to a lecture would probably be better.=x x_X..

Hmm .. wad else .. OH YA .. my dad purposely smsed me to go repair his god damn fone .. i dont see why i must do it for him when he alwaes torture me with his lecture ..grr.. so i pretended that i didnt receive that sms he sent me when he called to ask whether i received his sms .. so now tomorrow i have to go do it for him-.-.. #@%$ .. son of a motherless fruitcake! oh well .. anyway .. heres the poem for this week.. i'll probably post one poem a week .. ~CYA TMR^^..

Wrote this while i cried silently,

Nobody really cared i guess,

Now i fully understand,

For i was only hated and detest,

Fake promises and sweet nothings,

I guess they were all just meant to happen,

How the sadness in my heart sings,

It all happened for a reason,

I lost all that ive got,

No time for regret, no time for thoughts,

I guess .. ill just live.. day by day,

Without feelings, never to fray..

Live my life in full regret..

Forever my love for ue will never fret ..

2007-12-02T05:44:00.000-08:00

BLOG OPENED ! ;D WEE~ NOW I CAN SHOW OFF MY POEMS x)